My Personal Collection

What Do You Think You're Going To Get ???

2009-01-09T14:51:00.002-07:00

I don't understand!

He has gone to two meetings to determine who gets custody, and she didn't respond or call in time ... so everything was cool!
He had one more meeting to determine child support.

But now ... weeks after the deadline (48 days, but who's counting) ... NOW she responds and NOW she wants something. WHAT???!!!
How could this happen???? How is this legal??????

WHAT THE FUCK COULD YOU WANT NOW?

You were not there:
to care for her
to love her
to dry her tears
to let her throw up on when she's sick
to show her off
to change her diapers
to feed her
to have her call you mommy and mean it
to for her first day of school
to comfort her after a bad dream
to brush her hair
to see her open Christmas presents
to buy her her favorite drink from the gas station
to go to movies on a mommy/daughter night
to take her to Disney On Ice
to spend time with her
to help her with her homework
to teach her the ABC's and how to count
to teach her how to read
to have sleepovers
to teach her right from wrong
to show her what love looks like

TO BE HER MOTHER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and NOW you want something????
after WE have taken FULL care of her, and done EVERYTHING for her
and haven't asked for a fucking THING from you
NOW you want to be involved???

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO GET ANYTHING ... SHE IS MY DAUGHTER KNOW, AND SHE KNOWS THAT

BACK OFF and live your happy little meaningless life with your boyfriend or husband or whatever he is to you and leave this SWEET little INNOCENT girl alone ... to live her life happily with the people she loves and that love her back!

Ever wanted to fly?

2009-01-09T09:17:00.000-07:00

wingsuit base jumping from Ali on Vimeo.

THIS IS NOT MY VIDEO, I RECEIVED IT IN AN EMAIL!

Olivia Monroe is Here

2008-12-21T15:09:00.002-07:00

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Our Gracie

2008-12-21T15:08:00.001-07:00

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Montage 2008

2008-12-21T15:07:00.000-07:00

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World of Warcraft

2008-12-05T20:13:00.003-07:00

My husband and I got hooked on WoW on October 10, 2006 at 4:18:15 PM, after we saw the South Park Episode "Make Love, Not Warcraft"

(http://videoutopia.smartvideochannel.com/media/playvideo.aspx?f=flash7&cid=28D323DD11C14FDB9BDCF21BC876A1F1&v=mostviewed)

My main character's name is Svetlannia (look): http://www.wowarmory.com/character-sheet.xml?r=Baelgun&n=Svetlannia

My husband's main character's name is Lilanni (look): http://www.wowarmory.com/character-sheet.xml?r=Baelgun&n=Lilanni

We had job troubles and had to get rid of our computer. We weren't able to get another one until we moved into our current townhouse in February 2008. We got our main characters up to about 40 - 50-ish level before we stopped playing.

It's only $15 a month. Now that Wrath of the Lich King has come out ... it'd be a grand total of $90 to start playing, plus the monthly charge. ($20 for the main game, $30 for the Burning Crusade Expansion, then $40 for Wrath of the Lich King)

When we started playing, I could play all night ... my record was 20 straight hours. Now that Olivia came along, now it's even harder to play.

I was able to play with one hand and hold her at the same time, but the bigger she gets, and the different demands she has now, it's almost impossible to play.

She needs baby food at least 3 times a day, instead of only breast feeding (because she's not growing like she should, read my Olivia Monroe blogs) and my 6 yr old needs me to be a mom and not a gamer.

Please understand, I am not ... in ANY way ... complaining about being a mom because I LOVE it! But now I can't do both =(

I've taken a month off to make sure I don't over-do-it with the game. I tend to get burned out on certain entertainment, especially movies. I really enjoy the game and I never want to NOT want to play.

When I play now, I get so stressed out! I get very angry when I get stuck in an area I need to complete my quests in and there are too many mobs (monsters) clustered around and I keep dying.

I get so mad, I need to let it out with a quick burst of violence ... I usually take it out on the keyboard and I don't wanna do that!!

I don't like who I become when I play! I still want to play, but I just want to start a new character!

I'm playing on my husband's account right now and my sister is transferring her stuff off her computer (used to be mine) onto her new laptop and she'll give me back my computer. When that happens, I'll move my character over to my own account, but it's $20 to do that, so I can't really put effort into making a new character I really like if I'm not going to pay to transfer it ... I'm already shelling out $125 to play Svet on my account, I don't really want to pay $145 or $165, you know?

I just want to play and have fun, but I'm in such a rut right now =(

My Dream Wedding

2008-12-03T09:23:00.003-07:00

I'm not one of those girls who's always dreamed of the perfect wedding, I just wanted a medium-sized wedding with all my family there. My family is very important to me!

My vision included me in a "white" dress:

And a matching-style dress for my daughter/flower girl:

A white gold 3-stone diamond ring (less than 1 Karat total):

A beautiful 3+ tier wedding cake:

The centerpieces:

Place Settings:

(I like the colors, and the cherry blossoms)

(I don't like the hot pink, but I do like the balls of light up above!)

And the invitations:

(I like the colors ... but I know I need to pick a theme)

I pictured my dad giving me away, everyone's eyes on me, celebrating me feelings for my significant other (in this case Preston) with my whole family.

I'm not looking for a huge, expensive wedding where everything has to be perfect and there are 100 people and decorations all over. I'm simple. I'm casual. I just want a fucking "real" wedding!

Preston and I decided to get married when we did (Friday, August 26th, 2005) because of many reasons; including the fact that we love each other, we didn't want to wait, and we though it would look better to the courts the longer we were married when we filed for custody for Gracie, Preston's daughter.

We decided to go to the courthouse and get married by the judge. We didn't want the courtroom too crowded, so we only invited Preston's Mom (Sheryl), his former Step-dad, and his sister (Shanna), my Mom (Trudy), Dad (Matt), Step-mom (Holly), sister (Morgan), brother (Justin), and cousin (Veronica).

We left out 22 people, so our real wedding would only be for 50 or less =)
Here are some pictures from our courthouse wedding:

Who Are You???

2008-11-29T22:20:00.003-07:00

I Don't know who I am, or who I want to be.

I was watching Nannie Diaries (with Scarlet Johanson, not very good, btw) and it started with her at an interview. She was asked to describe who she was, and she had no idea.

That got me thinking ... what would I say? Who do I think I am? And I have no idea.

I am a married mother of two girls, and that's all I've ever wanted to be, a happily married mother. That's the only thing I ever wanted for myself. I have what I want, and I'm happy, but if asked who I am, I wouldn't know what to say.

My interests are all over the place, I like more than 10 genres of anything/everything, but I'm used to not having money to go out and have a good time. I'm one of those "make the best of it" girls and I just go with the flow.

I don't try to control what is not in my power (like traffic, or stupid/slow people in line at the grocery store) and I'm pretty much happy all the time. Sometimes I get bored, but that's what I have the internet for. I do voice my opinion ... I am a woman, but only on issues I have a voice in.

I'm 25 and I've only had one job that lasted longer than 6 months (a year at a daycare center). I started college, majoring in Early Childhood Education, and I dropped out because that's not what I wanted to do ... there's more to the college story, but I won't go into it now.

I've come to realize I do not like other people's kids! I like little babies, but once they have their own voice and opinions, they bug me ... until they're about 20 (or equivalent maturity). I love my own children of course, and I will have more of my own, but babysitting is not what I look forward to each day.

I smoke weed, I'm not much of a drinker, especially since I was preggo with Olivia, and now that I'm breastfeeding. I love popping my fingers, and absolutely hate it when people tell me it's bad for me ... show me a real document proving popping your fingers leads to arthritis!

I loved going to movies, but it's expensive, and we can't take Olivia yet, so that's a drag! I love watching Heroes and 24 ... we watch online since we can't afford cable, and antennas don't work where I live (in the mountains), not that it matters, we're switching to digital soon.

I'm just lost!

I don't have any friends, besides my husband and my sister, I don't go anywhere (I'll be getting my mom's van soon, but we won't really have the gas for me to do much), I don't do anything ... and I've ALWAYS been like that. I'm used to it!

I don't mind what a homebody I am, but I wish I wanted to do something else once in a while. I mean, I'm glad I don't have to always be doing something fun to enjoy myself because this way, I'm not that disappointed, but I wish I was more lively, more interesting.

I'm afraid I'm really boring and that's why I have no friends. My husband and I have the same interests ... even though I like almost everything, and we're in love, so that's a different story, but I'm worried I might bore him.

My one big fear is that my husband will leave me like my Dad left my Mom. They divorced when I was 9 years old and it still hurts to think about it. To me, that's the second worst thing that could happen to me (first worst is losing my kids in any way).

I'm ranting a little and getting off the subject ... my point is: I don't know who the fuck I am and that bothers me!

How do I change that? How do I get to know me? I know what I like and dislike, but how do I figure out who I am?????????

"Bob" by Weird Al Yankovic

2008-11-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

Awesome song by Weird Al

This song is entirely made of palindromes, which are words or sentenses spelled the same way forwards and backwards. For example: "race car" spelled backwards is: "rac ecar" (move the "e" to the left and it turns into "race car").

Barack Obama Wins!!!

2008-11-04T18:41:00.000-07:00

I totally voted for Obama, from the beginning.

I got a lot of flack from my parents and my husband, but I agree with Obama with most of the main issues and I've been behind him from the start!

What about you guys?